THE END OF IT

long time

2003-12-10T20:32:53Z

ahhh yeah long time no talk, doctors fri work for an hour sat, slept for the whole day, sunday work 9:30-5:30 then hospital that night for 3 hours, then doctors monday, then school tues still sick, then today wed! wow, didnt think this day wud come, no gym for a couple days, it sucks b,c i go to school for vb haha, thats sad fri concert! cant wait fata. haha with lily steve aj n nicole, yeah going to be amazing even though i need to buy 3 shirts haha, n 1 for me yeah, hmm okay thats it, looking foward to that a lot! haha yeah pz weeny

yeaks

2003-11-29T15:57:49Z

okay so this is my past week, or at least few days
WED- school then citrons surprise party, loads of fun. hung out with scruffy alyssa n seive, heard about how jared fell asleep in class and they left him hahaha, okay that night was fun
thurs turkey day
grandparents in the bronx, so upset b,c mike n tom just left as me were getting there so i didnt see them :( uh then whent to the hall like always yeah that was okay, haha almost started crying though....ahh stupid stuff, family stuff, okay left got home like 12
fri
slept all day that was fun, then nick from villa roma came over, talked to him for a bit, um got rede we took our pics for christmas at the mall so then after i hung out with aj n his 2 cousins saw ppl that was interesting? if u want to call it that
today sat im going to work wat a bore! ahhh okay im going bye

peace love eat my crap!

so

2003-11-23T00:16:34Z

um last night, fri night, whent to the mall with steve p. and dean, we ate at rubys YUMM, haha, gave me a stomach ach, sucker, came home talked to ppl till like 12:30 fun, woke up today, work 12-6:30 i hurt my back, again! yeah i did stupid stuff b,c i couldnt breath haha, got picked up whent to wendys for dinner, now home, so tired, want to sleep, again, like always, yeah, wegmans is like now all manalapan ppl, w.e was next to a hottie on register, haha, moving to customer service soon! finally, haha, okay, yeah, very confused at the moment, it sucks, i hate the feeling when u know what to do but u want to do the wrong thing soo bad, arg, yeah okay

ahh your orgasmic

well long time

2003-11-20T19:45:50Z

okay havent written in a while, danielles school so much fun, shoped, although jooonta got beat up by tux haha the cat, um what else, school this week, alright, actually scratch that, its fun haha, volly ball is so much fun, although my nuckle is black and blue, nothing else, could be sick idk yet...haha alright thats it

breath u in, blow u out
but a part of u still stays

well

2003-11-11T11:32:01Z

kinda akward right now, 6:20 am and im updating my journal, so much is going on, no more steve, but now, idk, more ppl on my mind then ever, one in particular, maybe? i have to go back to sju so i can visit sandy then head over to drexel to see chris! haha, this weekend danielles school w. joonta cant wait for that. um usually im good with this sorta stuff, but i guess not! haha, okay, a.j and i whent ice skating fri night, best time ever! and i only fell once trying to go backwards and it wasnt a big fall so i was excited! but i got such a big blister haha, its alright, its my war scar, haha, so that was that, theres a trip to italy for 12 days im going on w. school, and then a 20 day thing to england whales and irealand, that should be fun but i need to stay at ppls houses AHH, haha,it sucks though, i need to get recomndations for it, and an interveiw, haha, scary! i get my t.v by thursday! haha, and then the new one in the den! thats going to be amazinng haaaa although latley i dont watch t.v at all except nights, when im home. w.e AH point class i think is going to be comp......yeah i suck, haha, shouldnt be in that class at all, but hey i have sam so its all good lol, okay im going to go, haha, im putting all my things up on my walls today in my room instead of going to school haha yeah all the pictures adam made me, strangly im putting them up hahah, soo odd. w.e half days are wastes for me, pz weeny!

yup long time

2003-11-04T21:10:35Z

so idk, i cant think of the last time i updated, haha, thats because everything is great! no joke, so happy, haha, me and aj have a play date friday! yes haha, steves great, hahaha, having fun being with him.....hahaha :) um what else, math project AHH, haha, pissed off b,c of it, um oh well, havnt been feeling good latley oh well, haha, thats life, thurs going to sju excited, n sunday fordham! oh yeah hahaha
alrighty ill write more in the future, nothing really to say haha

wispering sweet nothing

haa

2003-11-02T04:16:37Z

um what a day, woke up all that dandy stuff fone and all, me n dad whent to the oral surgion so my dad could get a tooth pulled ( its soo funny looking now) then we came home 2 hours later and me and him whent driving (i drove!) then me mom sam meagan and dad whent to wegmans for lunch (got a free sub) fun talked to other wegmaners, but working tomorrow :( um then we whent to best buy, looked at the tv were getting, saw my teacher, then we dropped meagan off at the movies, party thingy then we whent into the mall, for like 4 hours haha, all i got was socks :( haha, but thats ok b,c i got pants yesterday, saw my shoes that im getting, orange converse, u cant beat that! haha, seriously, then after the never ending mall, whent home, steve came over, we layed on the couch in the basement, haha, i tickled steve, and i didnt even meen to haha, hes just one of those, it was fun haha, watched t.v but i got mad at the io crap b,c of all the black outs this week i couldnt watch radio free rosco or degrasi that got me pissed, haha, so we saw 8 mile and like bits of other stuff hahaha, then steve left at like 11, haha, dad was like ALLIE GET TO BED, U HAVE WORK TOMORROW! hahaha, gotta love the parentals, yeah it was a fun night! hahaha, although now i probally have like little black and blues from steve, but ill get over it, haha, alrighty then, night

hmm

2003-11-01T16:18:04Z

well, yesterday school, halloween, i have to say was funny, haha, it entertained me, gym is my best class, only b,c i got to surf on the mats, haha, fun, came home dropper off my books, me and eric whent out to lowels and the bank that was closed! and mc donalds haha, but it took for ever b,c stupid unionhill road was closed, so we ended up getting home like 2 hours later, was very fun, um talked a lot haha, what else, came home at like 4somthing showered, then tryed sleeping but steve woke me up, so then watched t.v with the g-ma! then got dressed, and steve picked me up and whent to see radio! so happy, haha, but it was sad i wanted to cry, but i didnt, i was strong haha, um then we whent to the mall, i wanted the orange etnies sweatshirt but i couldnt get it in my size :( so im getting it from the web site, then i got pants hahaha, i dont think steve likes them (he likes tight pants) haha, then we came back to my house, and watched hollywood homicide, but steve left b,4 it was over haha, hes a baby, n e who, after the movie was over, he called so we talked, and he fell asleep on me! at like 12:30 ahh, wat a kid haha, so i hung up on him, hahaha, well now its morning, just got off the phone with steve, just got dressed, going out with the dad now, bye

IdK

2003-10-30T23:17:35Z

today was good, my head still hurts like its bin for about a week,i have dance tonight..yay...i guess. going to see radio with steve tommarow :) steve is the coolest most bestest person in the world, he is so danm sexy. tommarows Halloween, i think im gunna get off my lazy ass and brush my hair tommarow so i can wear it down cause steve loves it when i wear it down. well im gunna go, goodnight

stolen from tom

2003-10-26T02:54:57Z

LAYER ONE:
-- name: allie
-- birthplace: Leonia, New Jersey
-- current Location: manalapan
-- eye color: brown
-- hair color: brown ish
-- height: 5' 2"
-- righty or lefty: righty
-- zodiac sign: virgo
LAYER TWO:
-- your heritage: italian, irish
-- the shoes you wore today: etnies
-- your weakness: to emotional, i guess
-- your fears: to many to say
-- your perfect pizza: well done and plain
-- goal you'd like to achieve: .........

LAYER THREE:
-- your most overused phrase on AIM: hahaha
-- your thoughts first waking up: another day
-- your bedtime: 10
-- your most missed memory: my sweet 16
LAYER FOUR:
-- pepsi or coke: diet coke no ice w. a peice of fruit
-- mcdonald's or burger king: neither
-- single or group dates: single
-- adidas or nike: neither
-- lipton ice tea or nestea: i dont drink it
-- chocolate or vanilla: choc
-- cappuccino or coffee: neither

LAYER FIVE:
-- smoke: no
-- cuss: hardly
-- sing: every min
-- take a shower everyday: yes
-- have a crush: yup
-- do you think you've been in love: yeah, or else my heart lied to me
-- want to go to college: yeah
-- like(d) high school: not at all
-- want to get married: depends
-- believe in yourself: no
-- get motion sickness: nope
-- think you're attractive: not rele
-- think you're a health freak: no
-- get along with your parent(s): nope
-- like thunderstorms: im a baby, no
-- play an instrument: tried and failed

LAYER SIX:
in the past month...
-- drank alcohol: sadly
-- smoked: no
-- done a drug: no
-- had sex: no
-- made out: yes
-- gone on a date: i dont believe in calling things dates
-- gone to the mall?: yeah
-- eaten an entire box of oreos: no
-- eaten sushi: yeah
-- been on stage: no
-- been dumped: yup
-- gone skating: no
-- made homemade cookies: no
-- gone skinnydipping: no
-- dyed your hair: no
-- stolen anything: no

LAYER SEVEN:
ever...
-- played a game that required removal of clothing: no
-- if so, was it mixed company:
-- been trashed or extremely intoxicated: no
-- been caught "doing something": no
-- been called a tease: no
-- gotten beaten up: in a way
-- shoplifted: no
-- changed who you were to fit in: i dont

LAYER EIGHT:
-- age you hope to be married: yup
-- numbers and names of children: im not reproducing, thats the last thing this world needs
-- describe your dream wedding: no
-- how do you want to die: in my sleep
-- where you want to go to college: st. josephs or qu
-- what do you want to be when you grow up: umm
-- what country would you most like to visit: idk

LAYER NINE:
in a guy..
-- best eye color? idc
-- best hair color? black
-- short or long hair: long
-- height: around 6 somthing
-- best weight: doesnt care
-- best articles of clothing: doesnt matter
-- best first date location: dont care, i dont go on dates
-- best first kiss location: does it matter

LAYER TEN:
-- # of drugs taken illegally: 0
-- # of people i could trust with my life: 0
-- # of CDs that i own: not that many
-- # of piercings: my ears
-- # of tattoos: 0
-- # of scars on my body: idk
-- # of things in my past that i regret: a lot sadly

Currents:
{x} current clothes: grean pants, white tank and blue sweater
{x} current mood: in a slump
{x} current taste: pasta
{x} current hair: up in 2 bun thingys with the bottom down
{x} current annoyance: myself?
{x} current smell: food
{x} current thing you ought to be doing: nothing
{x} current desktop picture: me alexandra and tom from villa roma
{x} current book: none
{x} current refreshment: none
{x} current worry: um cousin crap
{x} current crush: steve i guess.....does that count?
{x} current favorite celebrity: none
Who / What:
{x} who do you like: steve
{x} who likes you: steve
{x} what annoys you:people
{x} what do you want to do: leave
{x} who is one person you would marry tomorrow: not sure
{x} do you sleep on your back, stomach or side?: side
{x} what would you take if you were stuck on a desert island? nothing
{x} who would you take to that island if you had to take anyone, dead or alive?: my big g-ma
Do / Have / What / etc.:
{x} do you like water?: no
{x} if your house was on fire and you could only save one thing, what would you save?: being i already was in this situation
{x} have you ever said 'i love you' and not meant it?: no
{x} what is your favorite sesame street character?: none
{x} what time is it?: 10:49
{x} what time did you wake up this morning?: 9 ish
{x} who would you trade places with for a day?: my dad.. idk,he wants to live my life
{x} have you ever been told you look like a celebrity?: no
{x} finish this sentence. "i wouldn't be caught dead"... idk
{x} what is the worst thing that can happen on a date?: finding out it was a bet
{x} would you rather live in the mountains or by the ocean?: mountains

Last time you've:
{x} cried: idk a day or two ago
{x} bought something: today, pizza
{x} gotten sick: idk
{x} eaten: in the past 2hours
{x} felt stupid: always
{x} wanted to tell someone you loved them, but didn't: 2 weeks ago
{x} talked to an ex: a day ago, maybe
{x} talked to someone you have a crush on:
{x} had a serious talk: never
{x} missed someone: umm
{x} hugged someone: idk, yesterday
{x} boyfriend: was tom, now steve
{x} are you center of attention or a wall flower: depends
{x} what type of automobile do you drive: none
{x} would you rather be with friends or on a date: depends
{x} do you attend church: yeah
{x} do you like being around people: if they dont piss me off
{x} who is your role model: no one.
{x} have you ever liked someone you had no chance with? yes
{x} have you ever cried over the opposite sex: sadly
{x} have you ever lied to your best friend: yah
{x} ever wanted to get revenge on someone because they hurt you: yes
{x} rather have a relationship or a "hookup": relationship
{x} want someone you don't have right now: no
{x} ever liked your best girl friend: probably
{x} do you want to get married: wow 10th time
{x} do you want kids: idk
{x} what is your favorite part of your physical appearance: idk, nothing
{x} are you happy with your life: no.

{x} if you could change something in your life right now, what would it be?: having so many regrets.....

what a day

2003-10-20T20:56:53Z

alright, so idk, hung out w, steve fri night! then weeekend at sis school (a look into the weekend in nov.) fun fun, today school but got to see steve! haha, umm well wat else, going out with steve now, haha, redundant with the name, but thats okay, head hurts not, kinda tired, wanted to sleep sooo bad! hahaha, um what else, nothing else rele haha, wow, alright bye

okay

2003-10-17T19:19:58Z

so these last days have been good. well, idk, today wud have been 8 months....its alright though, uh, marter came over yesterday! so fun haha, hes a good kid, um after that dance, yeah, hurt my toes soo bad, need new shoes haha, kinda funny actually, umm pep rally today in school, sat with steve... :) haha, what else mom and sam fighting, again right now, nothing different, havent drove in a while, hmm, want to go driving now, haha, idk, wat else, im in a dandy mood, w.e, it will get better....yeah it will, umm, wore my tie died shirt from rutgets today, i looked cool! hahaha, i seriously am in love w. this shirt, haha, go allie! wat else, NOTHING, want to go to sleep, yeah alrighty bye

days of our lives?

2003-10-13T02:51:22Z

well, heres to the days of our lives that we want to remember....idk, work this weekend, youth group tonight, wat i need to change about myself bye nov 2nd, to much to tell, haa, lifes a joke, well mine is, lost respect for myself, so much family stuff omg i want to scream at the top of my lungs so its over! that wont happen, a long time in the making. well, alright going, so stressed from everything yeah, dads sick, hes actually taking it rele bad, mom dont even know, me scared out of my mind! meagan, she doesnt understand it rele, and sam, god bless her, thats mostly all i need to say.... okay bye

hm

2003-10-10T01:46:06Z

okay, so today, thurs i guess, idk any more, pissed off at my self, and really upset actually, idk, long things, prob no one wants to hear, oh well, uh, what else, idk just prob going to be alone for ever, b,c every little thing gets me upset, okay, say it, allies a big baby, and ure right, OH FREAKIN WELL, i dont rele care any more b,c some people are wow, not even going to go there, to much stuff going on dont rele want to worry about it, okay, bye

yeah

2003-10-08T19:52:14Z

so long time no write, so many things happening, idk where to start, from me n tom things, to fam things, wow, my life is insane right now, but know what even though me n tom arent together right now hes helped me the most out of any one, and idk, its hard but, i love him, and thats that, um, yeah, wouldnt go to school today, didnt want to see any one, and sick, so everything is just dandy, prob gonna go now, idk, in such an odd state of mind, everything rushing through my head, dont rele know where to begin, okay, going

i still <3 tom m

yeah

2003-09-30T01:32:19Z

so idk, latly ive been...yuck...very confused, down in the dumps, but been talking to tom, and he makes me smile! even though i miss our phone time....but finals are more important! haha, well what else last night drove for the 1st time....so scared! um tomorrow go to dmv and get my eyes checked! haha, oh yeah...wow razor burn...again! arg, it sucks, well school sucked like always, u know i havnt have 1 good day at school yet...rele a bummer....um, idk, baby sat tonight...goood $ for 4 kids. wat else, idk, rubber pizza as dinner...hahaha, so weird, okay prob bed now, bye

ehh

2003-09-29T00:50:11Z

hey, okay, yesterday worked, whent to toms right after. it was fun, and then we rested fow a bit. loving the molyneux! haha, work sucked today, but moving in like 2 weeks, got a 4th of a watermelon thrown at me...again aha. came home. eat, g-parents over from mom n dads side. fun fun fun! made $ hurray, actually got it this time. gotta buy gifts soon. i cant remember for wat though, gotta do research now. bye

today

2003-09-26T01:43:49Z

school...a bore, lol, didnt do italian till i got into class but she didnt check it! thank god. lol, idk came home from staying after... nothing rele to say, talked on the phone w. tom! sooo happy. he told me how i write in my journal wrong hahaha. umm, dance...AHH, on point w, an infected toe w. a hang nail u just pulled out KILLS belive me, hate my ballet class lol. w.e got home got yelled at. showered. talked to tom now bed.....long day...LOVE U TOM bye

hmm

2003-09-24T23:51:03Z

well, just helped joonta w. him lab. got a 48/50 on mine. proud of myself... arg mad at mom, okay "one of these days meagan is going to say, know wat allie screw u, and u deserve it" yeah thats really nice! and i have to clean the whole friggen house or im grounded this weekend, and i was walking in the kitchen and steped in a big pile of BLOOD from sam, b,c she shaved her legs w. MY razor....EWW seriously, well gotta clean up the kitchen now, and take a shower, and do h.w YES haha, whent to lunch today actually w. joonta met up w. deen and some other kids, fun, although i whent to blades and they didnt have the shirt i wanted :( xL was the only size left :( yeah, okay going now,

tom i love u!

allie

jungle feaver

2003-09-23T20:33:23Z

so yesterday came home from school, sleep, woke eat, sleep, woke took tylonal YEAKS, haha, i was actually a smig scard, then took some more this morning, felt rele funny in my tummy, uh, not rele talking to ppl right now, lol, loner! lol, i gotta do so much h.w today, like study, how the hell do u take a test on pre-fixes? i honestly dont know lol, oh well, i have penut butter all on my sweat shirt...idk how or wh, w,e okay, going bye

HA

2003-09-22T20:40:37Z

yeah, work sunday sucked, came home, talked with tom, that made me smile :) haha, told him a story, hahaha, He owes me a 1 full night of phoning once his testes are done, haha, im holding him to it, today, school, head hurt since i got there AHH, and it still hurts now. essay to write, eaks, okay bye

so

2003-09-21T03:10:43Z

well, todays saterday. i dont know if ppl realize what goes on around them, but i cant seem to get past that place of reality and where u wish ure life was at. we get closer to taking the s.a.t's and it hits u theres more to life than just being a teenager, and having fun with friends and all that good stuff. we wish it could last, but it never does, some people dont make it past there highschool years, they end up having a tomb stone in memory, and then there are other who grow up and love life. well u dont need to love life, because that just shows theres no imperfections, when actually in retrosepc u dont exactly love life u love the fact that u have been able to look past all the bad things and love everything good that happend. now you can be one of those people who love all the good things in life, or be one of the ones whos just dust in the wind...its always your choice, but i hate to see you go, so learn to live and love what you can. there will always be people trying to hold you back, but just put them aside and do what u belive. but remember there will always be some1 who loves you no matter what.

i dont know what ppl will think. i dont rele care

oh one more thing....tom i love you!

ahh

2003-09-19T13:41:19Z

arg, dont feel good at all, cant breath nothing, yesterday school sucked, w.e idk anything right now, no sleep no dance yesterday, no school today, all b,c of rain, and now it screws me up with my essay n h.w due monday, idk what the hell im doing right now, gotta watch the kids till 2 today and they cant go on aol or watch t.v so idk wat im gonna do w. them. not a happy camper. kinda cranky, bye

what a day

2003-09-17T22:39:36Z

arg school always a bore, my whole class was like sneeze sneeze sneeze, arg, pisses me off. didnt know me sneezing was so ammusing to every one got a head killer from sneezing so much and from the weather. well 7 month, great! lol, and i thought ttoday wud be so good, and my fav dinner....NO, guess again, i didnt even eat b,c it was stuffed peppers and i dont eat that. arg so im a starved skunk...it happens, and my mom doesnt like my hair, know what IDC, its somthing new, i like it, ive had....blond, orange (bad sun in days) brown, and gold, haha, i need these new things to keep me still kicking, going to toms soon, only for a lil but heck its better than nothing! lol, wat else so now i have coodies, "all grls dont shower n are stinky" hahaha, i love helping teach ccd, wat wise words of wisdome i get from a 3rd grade boy yeah well, pre-pre-puberty, hahaha, loving life and wishing u were still breast fed hahaha, well pz weenies

bed time

2003-09-17T02:58:13Z

idk. something wrong, not happy, when i shud be shudnt i? but wont talk about it b,c then it just sounds like i want to have ppl feeling sry for me, but i dont, dont know what i want, have some friends..but just lost like 3 of them...have a boyfriend...love him, and then live in a house where i dont talk to ppl but all it is is yelling all day, i go to dance and just suck, feels like every one in my point class is just talking about me, idk, maybe they are. or maybe its all just in my head...no feeling is left any more, tears randomly come down my face, and i cudnt even tell u why, i dont want ppl to understand this, most/no one will.....nothing left to say